Curious...

"Curiouser and curiouser", thought Alice, as she took the the little white pill with the Mitsubishi logo on it... "Oh My, so many colours..."  she enthused, as she slipped deeper and deeper into her new world...

Apart from that, something truly curious and perhaps, inspirational has come to light.  Whilst it is not something that I would have exactly wished for, it appears that someone I have had an interest in for  a while has become recently single.  She's come out of a long term relationship so I don't think I can get any ideas rightly soon.  I think maybe in the future I might look to see if the time is right.  I would certainly hope so.  I have had a thing for her for a long time and it would be absolutely amazing if there might be a chance to see what might be.

That said, to jump right in to something like this might just be too much.  I mean, I'm rusty to say the least when it comes to relationships and romance.  I have good intentions and I want to make it happen but the bottom line is that I have been single for so long that I can't exactly say that I am 'well practiced' in these matters.  Maybe it is time to actually pull my finger out and  look into this online dating malarkey.  If I happen to find the right person while I am at it then that is all good.  If I don't find the right person, at least I will have chance to make a few mistakes and learn from them - hopeful not hurting anyone else in the process.  I guess I'll just have to see where everything goes.

Before any of this came to light, I found myself wondering something the other night...  There was someone that I was all into a few months ago, and this person - who I first met a couple of years ago. I found myself wondering - day dreaming.  I have to say that I was slightly surprised what conclusions I came to.  The one I keep thinking about from time to time is not the one that I would have initially thought I would.  But then again, it's less infatuation and more about a long term thing.

Who knows, it's got me thinking though.  And I'm thinking that it's time...  I just wish I was in better physical shape.  I don't know any more.  I'm on new ground and I'm pretty unsure of where I'm going.  Let the adventure begin...

Stress

Im at work right now, Im seriously stressed and there is one person who is really not helping things.  I feel a frustration like I haven't felt in a while and I need somewhere to vent it... Here will do!

Other than that this is a fine way to waste away the last few minutes of my lunch break.  A break that is so late it could be afternoon tea!

Stressing aside, it's strange how things transpire and numerous paths seems to cross each other to lead you to certain places.  Someone I work with has really started me thinking.  Its been ages since Ive been to church and actually expressed my beliefs.  I think they have basically taken a back seat for a while - neglect, working to hard etc.  Yet now it is like I'm being given a prod in the right direction again.  The feelings that I have about what feels right and how I want to worship appear to have been given a name - The Baptist Church.  So on the surface that seems to fit.. I think maybe i need to do some reading and find out exactly what doctrine and whether it all seems to fit, but so far so good?

Other than that I just seem to be being given a prod in the right direction.  I described it to this particular person at work as it feeling like you are picked up from your current path and set down in a different direction, almost with a "No you don't, I want you over here..."

This feels like it again.  And it's strange how messages always seem to come from someone that God knows you will listen to.  Either the place in your life that they have or something else that makes you pay attention to them.

Strange times, strange day.  Anyway, feeling a little better now so off to deal with the last 35 minutes of it all before I can go home.

After a month away from here...

Ok, Last time I was getting all stressed out over moving house and trying to fond somewhere. Well, the reason for me going quiet is that I have found somewhere and moved in (maybe I'll post some photos on here in a few days). Because of moving I haven't had any web access for the last couple of weeks, partially thanks to British Telecom cocking up my broadband installation. But I'm on now. So I've been through the rough but some how, but now there is a path and it feels pretty much like things are getting back on track with everything in my life.

Tomrrow's a new begining

Tomorrow sees me starting my new job. It's all happened really quickly, only three days ago I was down in this deep pit of dispair with nowhere to go but down and out. I have GOd to thank for that. And now I am going on to embark on the new path that has been set out for me to follow. I've got to drive down to Plymouth tomorrow (about a 3 1/2 hour drive) and then spend 3 nights in a hotel. I'm looking forward to it actually, the four walls of my home have become something of a prison cell over the last two months and this will be like a mini break as well as training me for my new role.

God, as I embark on this new beginning
Please grant me the strength to succeed
The presence of mind to learn all that I need to learn
And to walk this path with you always in my heart
Please grant me a safe journey there and back
And keep me and my posessions safe in a strange city

Thank you so much for this blessing
Despite all my sins you have given me this
I love you so much
And I am trully thankful for this opportunity

In Jesus Name
Amen